I 've been thinking a lot the last few days and brooding, but not a piece've become smarter. All I know is that my problem is bigger than I first thought. And why? Confrontation. I am so upset and confused, and I like the moment is not "more" thinking .. Finally, I stand just before Abi and I have to focus on .. at least so far as is possible and it makes my head! How do I feel? And how I feel? Do not ask but ... I'd love to write everything again, flushing, this can be, .. but what brings me the if there are only superficialities eh, do not touch me after 4 or 5 days ... I understand not so much at the moment, everything is very difficult for me, I speak dangling between two worlds and have had enough of it, not fight this feeling .. But as I said I find it too hard! And alone anyway ... I still simmers in so many things want to get out .. (The "it") but I will not allow it! Bla bla bla. I am not the only issue, THE I KNOW! But I can feel the problems of the other NOT ... I do not know how to do it my friend, after the call yesterday, I do not know how my ex feels best friend when he looks into my eyes and just a missing eye gets back .. I do not know. And I do not know often. Then it to quickly .. too much to fully loaded, .. I just want out. My body has never felt so cruel, my voice was no longer as bad, I was not so long depressed and self-destructive, as in these last days. I just want out. No, not on holidays or with friends .. I want OUT! feel all this time not for a moment, nothing to remember, see, hear, ... But that shit like now I write almost every time, right? And barely read, seen .... Therefore, perhaps the end. I do not know yet.
I find it so difficult ...
0 comments:
Post a Comment