Thursday, September 29, 2005

Are British Men Cads?

manan @ 2005-09-29T18: 24:00

me today it 's really really good! : D reached 47.9
.. jaaa

my tag:
school was pretty ok ... had psychology and it was really interesting ...
was then I swim ... Unfortunately, only 20 minutes because I had foot cramps constantly ... hmpf
I was shopping short and've got a new pants size get in the 152: D jaaajajajajaa
aaand then I was even invited to eat tomorrow for (what irony) .. and I'm looking animal:)
with the Effexor I've never started non .. I think I will take aggressive in the beginning of the week ...

hach people ..
finally a day where it is really nice to me again ..
I enjoy it.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Camo Groom Vestswedding

Question!

me it is not good.
somehow.
today is a really crappy day. everything goes wrong (even though nothing happens and I sit around just stupid), I have no desire to do something, clean up any desire to go to the other ...
I feel like crazy have things to do. which would only understand a few people: (I feel terrible
solves ephedrine capsule currently in my stomach ... and I want to continue. Eat ...

2kleine bits of meat and half a bun ..
I must stop eating.
I need to lose weight again.
48.5 ... too much. far too much.

what should I do to? I really have to have a little more discipline and I have no desire to try ALWAYS a friendly face to make. you know what I want to do again? Once in the morning to go uni .. NICHTSaussagendem with my facial expression. with my feelings that plague me, .. I would not laugh, do not be friendly. just walk up only, I do not adjust and go again .. without being viewed equally stupid .. are not the same as always-depressing stamped tussi to.
I can not and will not always mask ... Bear I need it every day so much power ... and it is increasingly difficult to stand still as attentive and smiling .. I do not want any more.
Just take me as I AM!
and today I'm just depressed, self-destructive and melancholy.
but then craps on my face ... even if my mouth hang down .. does not matter .. but let me simply. let me know.

I hardly go out of the house, I'm
who else.

as was the silver wedding? Bed
hard to say .. I was already at 2 in the back too much because I was ... It has served me and my parents were there also in order. they know me!
I hate it ...

and food technology.
as I said.
48.5. still not enough ... I had expected more, ... so at 50kg, .. because of the heavy food and alcohol. but ok. I'm 45 ... no later than next week, at least 2kg be gone ....
I will again go to bed ... tomorrow we go back to uni ... tomorrow ... and I have no desire to be honest ... even if it's so good there. I just want to meet anyone, do not have to talk to anyone in the eye ...

oh yes ...
what it means to be a last time when my hands and feet in the efforts or sneeze every time to awful and disgusting tingle? thus, making it almost hurts ... somehow I do I care ..
but whatever ... what I have to lose?

have a nice sunday ....