I'm cold.
NO! I It is not good. That is why I write, too.
note I'm done with the nerves. I'm afraid, and I will like to get away and just disappear. I want to hide until it's all over ...
I'm filthy aggressive ... destructive ...
I hate and cry ...
inside I was bursting!
I think it is NOT!!
it can go on not really .. and NO, this time I do not speak or eat off of!
it is all ... the school, my fucking sister, friends .. I!
no ..
I feel really bad.
I have to get out.
got to go.
soon.
Monday, March 21, 2005
Friday, March 11, 2005
How To Watch South Park Online Useing The Wii
manan @ 2005-03-11T22: 31:00
I eat too much to the
And not enough to stay alive
I'm sitting in the middle waiting
Days since I last pissed
Cheeks sunken and despaired
So gorgeous sunk to six stone
Lose my only remaining home
See my third rib appear
A week later all my flesh disappears
Stretching taut, cling-film on bone
I'm getting better
Karen says I've reached my target weight
Kate and Emma and Kristin know it's fake
Problem is diet's not a big enough word
I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity
Stomach collapsed at five
Lift up my skirt my sex is gone
Naked and lovely and 5st. 2
May I bud and never flower
My vision's getting blurred
But I can see my ribs and I feel fine
My hands are trembling stalks
And I can feel my breasts are sinking
Mother trys to choke me with roast beef
And sits savouring her sole Ryvita
That's the way you're built my father said
But I can change, my cocoon shedding
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity
Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat
All things I like looking at
Too weak to fuss, too weak to die
Choice is skeletal in everybody's life
I choose my choice, I starve to frenzy
Hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires
Legs bend, stockinged I am Twiggy
And I don't mind the horror that surrounds me
Self-worth scatters, self-esteem's a bore
I long since moved to a higher plateau
This discipline's so rare so please applaud
Just look at the fat scum who pamper me so
Yeh 4st. 7, an epilogue of youth
Such beautiful dignity in self-abuse
I've finally come to understand life
Through staring blankly at my navel
I eat too much to the
And not enough to stay alive
I'm sitting in the middle waiting
Days since I last pissed
Cheeks sunken and despaired
So gorgeous sunk to six stone
Lose my only remaining home
See my third rib appear
A week later all my flesh disappears
Stretching taut, cling-film on bone
I'm getting better
Karen says I've reached my target weight
Kate and Emma and Kristin know it's fake
Problem is diet's not a big enough word
I wanna be so skinny that I rot from view
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity
Stomach collapsed at five
Lift up my skirt my sex is gone
Naked and lovely and 5st. 2
May I bud and never flower
My vision's getting blurred
But I can see my ribs and I feel fine
My hands are trembling stalks
And I can feel my breasts are sinking
Mother trys to choke me with roast beef
And sits savouring her sole Ryvita
That's the way you're built my father said
But I can change, my cocoon shedding
I want to walk in the snow
And not leave a footprint
I want to walk in the snow
And not soil its purity
Kate and Kristin and Kit Kat
All things I like looking at
Too weak to fuss, too weak to die
Choice is skeletal in everybody's life
I choose my choice, I starve to frenzy
Hunger soon passes and sickness soon tires
Legs bend, stockinged I am Twiggy
And I don't mind the horror that surrounds me
Self-worth scatters, self-esteem's a bore
I long since moved to a higher plateau
This discipline's so rare so please applaud
Just look at the fat scum who pamper me so
Yeh 4st. 7, an epilogue of youth
Such beautiful dignity in self-abuse
I've finally come to understand life
Through staring blankly at my navel
Wednesday, March 9, 2005
Why Scorpio Is Serious
..
die migräne attacken werden irgendwie immer schlimmer und ich habe erst im juli einen termin in der klinik! das ist echt nich fair..
just yesterday.
I've done it a std to stay in school ..
was and then puking all morning and half dying in bed ... : (Now I feel like new born Japanese .. So if niiie would have been something ..
does it so damn fast in last time and somehow makes me fear that I'm so often sick .. clear isses with me certainly the psychedelic .. but that's the only reason?
tonight I must go off again.
And again I do not want and would prefer for it to push me to lie in my bed .. but no. I have there ... I can finally press does not always hide .. and also about our abi ball .. which I also very important is!
hach ja ...
I've just squashed ne packaging toffifee
die migräne attacken werden irgendwie immer schlimmer und ich habe erst im juli einen termin in der klinik! das ist echt nich fair..
just yesterday.
I've done it a std to stay in school ..
was and then puking all morning and half dying in bed ... : (Now I feel like new born Japanese .. So if niiie would have been something ..
does it so damn fast in last time and somehow makes me fear that I'm so often sick .. clear isses with me certainly the psychedelic .. but that's the only reason?
tonight I must go off again.
And again I do not want and would prefer for it to push me to lie in my bed .. but no. I have there ... I can finally press does not always hide .. and also about our abi ball .. which I also very important is!
hach ja ...
I've just squashed ne packaging toffifee
Sunday, March 6, 2005
Do Bunion Correctors Really Work
I despair at the firm:! (
I'll write tomorrow vorklausur math and I really really really nothing I am so ready ... shit man .. I'm totally in the ass ! I'm so frightened! afterwards 2 hours tuition ... I read through so many things to me and write as viekl but I understand nothing at all! what should I do? SCGHEEEEEEIßE!
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